46/52 Rip My Heart Out
There was no way I was leaving my house for this week’s 52 weeks self-portrait as it’s been -30 all week, so instead I decided to play around with Victor’s laser pointer and make heart shapes in my living room. It seems every time I do black and white self-portraits that I do them in here, something I didn’t realize until I went to post this. I notice a lot of patterns when it comes to photo project, not matter how hard you try sometimes you just default to similar themes, locations, ectera. This week’s inspiration song btw makes me crack up. I think I’m the only person beside Victor who didn’t know about this amazing song. I heard it last weekend when I went to see my friend Derek dj and it’s been both of our’s jam since. Give it a listen if you haven’t heard it either. I’m in love with the coco…
“I’m in love with the coco
I’m in love with the coco
I got it for the low, low
I’m in love with the coco
36, that’s a kilo (aqui)
Need a brick, miss my free throw
I’m in love, just like Ne-Yo “
– O.T. Genasis “Coco”
38/52 Home Sweet Home
Some weeks I just get lost and feel like I can’t possibly recover. Most of those weeks are when my insomnia and anxiety are controlling me and my life is too much. Every day becomes me trying to fix my problems with in one fell swoop but instead spending the day too tired to even accomplish the simplest of things. Like a weekly photo…..so I sat on my couch in my new fuzzy sweater and I tried to hide.
“The shadow from the former
Over my shoulder waiting to take me home
I heard its every call
I know what it wants
I’m willing to leave for home”
– Iamamiwhoami “The Last Dancer”
31/52 Come to Daddy
I felt I had to make the self-portrait for my 52 Weeks Project this week my Halloween costume. My costume this year was Aphex Twin, yes that DJ I’ve been going on about non-stop since he put out his newest record Syro in late September. The costume is a little lazy of me because I made the mask 6 years ago for fun, it is his album cover for ‘Richard D James” and the for the rest of the costume is clothes I already had in my closet and a ginger ratty wig from Dollarama. I’ve had so much going on this month that I couldn’t really place a lot of focus on making or spending money on a costume. It’s kind of an insane costume to begin with so maybe I’ll revisit it sometimes and make an exact replica of one his video characters. I’m supposed to be one of the children from his video “Come to Daddy”, oh and I may have made a gif of me… (if you want to see the gif with the added sound, click here)
17/52 Needle in the Hay
Today’s self-portrait is just a classic style of black and white portrait photography using triple exposure to get the effect of the leaves around my face. I was working on a more ‘spookier’ idea with me holding my two floating heads but I’m not a master at having similar facial expressions in 3 constitutive shots so it was a bit hard to get a shot I liked (example: one would be still, another angry and another more frightening…my expressions kept throwing the shot off). I did love how serene I looked in this one so I cropped out the rest of the shot. I’ve always wondered what my photography would look like if I photoshopped it and did effects like most modern photographers but I’m just happy taking simple shots to be bothered with it. Hope you like and next week is super busy so it’s good idea I already kind of know what I want for next week.
“There’s a name you keep repeating
You got nothing better to do
And you’re with someone who’ll hear you say it and just nod
Her hand on your arm
Her hand on your arm
She put her hand on your arm
And told you her name you can’t pronounce it
I’ll show you around this alphabet town”
– Elliott Smith “Alphabet Town”
Had a tough time getting time to take any self-portraits this week but I love how this turned out. My art wall in my living room / office with original artwork and prints from artist all over the world it one of the greatest parts of my apartment. It means so much to me to be able to have art in my life. Speaking of such, I have an amazing concept I’m going to be spending a lot of time trying to perfect this week. I took a few photos of it this afternoon but in the end thought I could spend a lot more effor and time doing it instead of just half-assing it just to have a photo today. 52 weeks is tough, I’m only up to 16…
“I can’t see you anymore
It’s like I walked the bridge so far
I can’t see you anymore
Even if I wanted to
Even if I wanted to
Even if you wanted me to”
– Benoit and Sergio “Bridge So Far”
I had to include this outtake because some how I managed to make me eye blend in perfectly with the drawing…
13/52: Blending In
I just had to make this the self-portrait for this week. I had too much fun last Sunday at the Malting Silos to not include the double exposure of myself that I took there against the buildings large graffiti filled silos. I must be missing taking photos with film because I keep converting photos I’ve taken with my digital and trying to process them to look like black and white film. I just love how this shot turned out and is really excited by how much I blend into graffiti on the building. Tomorrow marks the last day of work before I am on an almost two week vacation from my job so I am hoping to really try and capture some amazing shoots then. Perhaps explore some self-portraits without using double exposure? Hahaha, it’s been my go to lately but I’ve really been enjoying taking them and trying to capture unique situations but I have a few things I need more time to dedicate to them so they will be perfect to take now that I’m on my vacation.
“Sails catch any wind that they can
Through any ocean to any land
There’s no worries
Power carries no concern
Silhouetted by the fields as they burn
There’s no worries
You’re falling straight into our hands
No compromise,and no demands
You’re falling straight into our hands
Into our hands,into our hands
Still water hides an undertow
You can’t fight what you can’t control
There’s no worries “
– Sparta “Red.Right.Return”
It is starting to snow here so I thought I’d share some Holga photographs I toke back in 2011 of me and Victor walking around our old neighborhood to visit our friends in the Basement. The ones of the masks were taken on our old apartment’s back porch that went down onto an open rooftop. I miss that house and being able to walk a few blocks to visit friends, it feels like such a long time ago. I look so grumpy in the one Victor toke of me, lol. I have lots of photos to share with you guys coming up in the new year taken by this guy, it’s been really nice starting to use my CFN version more and getting back into the feel of it. My profile of me with it went up last week if you haven’t check that out, here.
So last year I was a Día de Muertos bride for Halloween so I thought for Self-Portrait Sunday I’d show you guys my costume in preparation for this year ! (I’ve shown it off a few times before as well) I had doing my make-up although it took a very long time and really enjoyed the bone details. I wore it once to a club without the wig and then on Halloween to work/hand out candy. It was great fun and I made the flower headband and bouquet which I was really proud off because I am not that arts and crafts. I actually kept the headband because I love it so much but haven’t found a use for it yet.
I feel like spilling the beans on my costume for this year as it’ll be the 3rd by next Sunday so you won’t even see it on Halloween. I am going to be a Lolita girl like the Japanese fashion trend. I have a knock off Lolita dress that I’ve actually had in my closet since February so that was just too perfect. I am going to be wearing a pale purple curly wig with lots of cute hair clips and lots of Lolita style jewelry and a bag that will just make the whole outfit go together. I am really excited to wear it! I’ll make sure to take lots of pictures to show you guys, for right now I don’t have much plans for where I am going to be wearing it but probably a club and work again like last year. What are your plans for Halloween and what is your costume?
I found a whole bunch of film while organize my 120 film last month and discovered Holga photos that I have never printed off or scanned onto my computer. Most of them were very strange and I believe they come from a roll of film I had sitting around for 2 years before I had it developed. It was an interesting find and I wanted to show you guys some of the photos. I really need to spend more time working on my Holga skills as with practice it’s easier to get really amazing shots. The shots are from 2009 of two of my old roommates in Vancouver taken in the backyard of the house we shared. Most of the shots were experiments I was doing with multiple exposures and didn’t turn out very well but I don’t take my toy photography too seriously (bad for my health). If you don’t like experimental photos head over to here to check out my cleaner shots taken with Holga (here and here).
A sneak peak at some of the Ising Pucky 1 photos I from Vancouver. I’ve never used the Ising before on portrait shots and it appears the focus is just not ideal for portraits at all (lesson learned). There is two fixed focus distances for the camera and I used the lowest which I thought would be far enough for most portrait shots. I think I will try one more time with more range on the subject but I am happy just using this amazing camera for landscape if I have to. I think the next test to do with this camera is colored film. Despite the lack of focus on the subject’s faces I still cannot help but love these shots.
Thanks so much to my models: Lisa Michelle, Ana Droid and Jessica!
*if you wanna see more photos taken with the Ising Pucky (here or here)
There is such perfect symmetry you can find with double exposures – I love trying to find it because it really pays off when you get that perfect mixture of light, contrast and texture. I adore my sparkly kitty mask, I don’t even remember where I picked it up from anymore but I remember seeing it and knowing I had to have it. This makes me miss my bangs, I’ve been considering getting them again….hair decisions are always the hardest. I always find myself looking back at what I had last year and debating (this photo is from last September or October). I thought I’d end on a non-double exposure so you can see the mask in more detail.
This series of self-portraits were taken back in 2009 when I use to listen to the Knife all the time. If you cannot tell I am wearing a mask of my own face. One of my incomplete mixed media masks. I still haven’t finished it even though it’s been years. I miss this house where these were shot. I only lived there a few months (in the basement) but it was my friend Zara’s house and she lived there for years. I have very good memories of that place spanning several years, her Uncle sold it recently which was a shame. I felt very much trapped in the time I lived there, it was shortly before I moved to Montreal and was just grasping at release from a city that I no longer enjoyed. It’s when I really started getting into double exposures. I have always been fascinated by double exposures, I guess it’s the dual aspect of personality you get with them and then sense of motion, it reminds of movies where people blur when they move or Japanese horror movies. These shots evoke a lot of emotions for me, I really think the mask’s expression says it all really.
Today is my first day of vacation! I have the next 2 weeks off and will be visiting Vancouver from July 23rd to 31st. Don’t worry there will still be daily posts on the blog. I will be spending the next few days working on completing them so there will not be much mention about my trip but don’t worry when I come home I will have plenty to tell you and even more photography to share with you. I bought a lot of Fuji film for my Polaroid camera and will be taking lots of instant photos which is exciting and still haven’t narrowed down all the cameras I will be bringing but I think my suitcase will probably be filled with them. Look forward in August on Thursday for photoshoots taken from my trip. If you want to see daily photos of the trip, check out my Facebook or my 365 Tumblr!
A look back at few classic portraits in my collection, these were shot in 2008 with model and photography Lisa-Michelle. I cherise this set of photos, we had a much needed adventure near her house and spent a few hours getting shots of each other. We have an amazing photo shoot planned for next week when I visit Vancouver – it should be really fun not only to see Michelle but to get the chance to take photos of her. She is very lovely and great at being a model, I wish I could say the same for me. Poor Michelle has to deal with the fact I hate smiling in photos and…lets just say I make the worst model. I promised her I’d pratice before coming out (lets just say I haven’t but I’m confident I can at least not look angry in every shot). When I do photo shoots I love it just being a hang out and just let everything progress naturally. It always works best with Michelle because we both are photographers so we both think about the shoots and know what the other one is trying to accomplish with a shot. I am very excited for next week and promise a sneak peak in my 365 photo a day project. Enjoy her beauty in the meantime!
It`s been a long time since I’ve used my Holgaroid, the last time I posted about it was when I did my review (here if you haven`t read) and I finally thought about picking it up again. It`s quiet a frustrating camera but I had some Fuji black and white film laying around and am a bit bored of the Polaroid Colorpack so I thought it`d be nice to try my hand again… every time I use the Holgaroid I feel like I’m wasting film. I remember with the colored Fuji film that it always had to be very sunny and since it was a great day outside on Saturday I thought it’d take it with us on our walk around downtown. The first 6 photos were too over-exposed to even make out what was in them, even in the shade. I waited until it was getting darker and then the shots were underexposed. I’m sure it worked better using the original intended film for it by Polaroid (that isn’t made anymore) however I think this is my last time using the Holgaroid. From my previous negative experiences to my frustrating day today, I think this guy is going back on the shelf. But I thought I’d share the shots that kind of turned out.
These giant prints were taken with the Kodak Brownie Target Six-20 which is considered a type of box camera and has been kicking around my house for a little less than a year. I picked this guy up at an antique store in Quebec City while on vacation with Victor last summer. He actually bought it for me as a present and I am so happy to have it. It takes 620 film which means I had to convert 120 film to be able to use the camera. I followed a few different tutorials on how to make 120 film become as small as 620. It didn’t look that difficult but I found half way through my roll that my film got stuck and I had to start using pliers to move the frames…and then at some point the pliers stopped working and I had to open up the camera and expose half the roll and manually roll it up to save the film that was already exposed because the film advance would not work. So I learned my lesson to just re-roll 120 film onto a 620 spool and leave the converting behind me. lol (at least converting 120 rolls with nail clippers to be the size of 620 that is). All the shots I got are from a trip to Jacques Cartier Bridge which you may see a lot of this summer as we’ve went a few times already and it’s a really fun walk from our house. I hope to pick up another type of box camera soon as they are lovely and now that I know this guy is in working condition I’ll happy take him out again and this time get a few more shots then this!
Butter of the Week today is in theme with Vintage Tuesday`s Polaroid portrait shots. I’ve only taken a few shots of my cat with the Polaroid Colorpack as I don`t use the flash with the camera and Butter is an inside cat. I always crank the light setting but there is still not enough light for a really good shot but I love them none the less. It doesn`t help that she moves way too much, her eyes are always ghosts like which is freaky. I hope to grab a good one of her in the summer when she goes outside a bit more. Hope you like these, have a great weekend!
My mister, Victor is the model for this series of photos, he wanted some photos for his DJ website (here)
These shots were taken a few weeks ago in one of our favourtie places in Montreal, the sculpture garden behind the Canadian Centre of Artitechture. We were having fun on Free Museum Day despite the rain and manged to visit 3 different museums total which was a lot of fun. One of things I love most about Montreal is the culture and the apperication of art and days were I get to spend enjoying it are the best.
I’ve never used my LomoKino camera before now even though I’ve had it for 6 months so this summer is the summer of mini-movies! It takes 35 film and makes roughly 90 second length of film. My first attempt was taken at the Mutek weekend of Piknic Electronic Festival of random scenes that I liked. For those of you not in Montreal, Piknic Electronic is an electronic music festival that takes place every Sunday all summer. San Proper was playing and I love his live set, it was a great day and I was really excited to try out LomoKino.
*this is how it looks when I scan the film, it’s a long process but I’m happy with my first round of LomoKino
I’ve been taking a lot of black and white portraits with Polaroid in the last few months and thought I`d share a few with you. I love the Fuji black and white instant film, the contrast is really good. Most of these shots were taken in May at various times. I`m really loving my Polaroid Colorpack camera, I always get great results. I am hoping to figure out how to carry film after taking the shots since right now I leave them until I get home before taking the backing paper off. I do that so not to get any dust on the film and because I scan the opposite side of the peeled paper as well. Fuji film also takes forever to dry completely but waiting until I`m home means I cannot make any adjustments, and sometimes I notice chemicals pool up on the film like in the shot of my co-worker Jenny. I just wasted 5 shots of film two weeks ago because I hadn’t switched from the b&w setting to color and my color shots all turned out over exposed and was not happy, so if you use Fuji film please let me know how you transport it?
*this is what happens when the light meter on highest setting by accident
The start to another Black and White week, which are starting to become almost monthly (which I love). I work mostly with b&w film for now because I’m developing my own and color film requires me to take it to a lap (Montreal does not have good film laps) so I’m saving my colored film for when I master b&w. Let me know what you think about b&w weeks!
This is one of my black and white self-portraits, I just like the heavy contrast and the grain created from the alteration of the exposure. I do not often use Photoshop (in fact I actually have not had Photoshop installed on a computer of mine in 5 years, this was actually made with Flickr’s old system) but I do like altered photos once and while. You’ll probably notice my photos are usually not even remote corrected, I try not to crop either. I do think alteration is okay but I try to stay instead the bounds of what I could do if I had access to a photo lap, color changes, contrast and lighting.
Folk Photography: The American Real-Photo Postcard 1905-1930
Folk Photography by Luc Sante is a 160 pages book about his personal collection of real-photo postcards taken in the 1900’s. Luc Sante is a writer and critic from New York area who started collecting real-photo postcards in the 80’s and over the years accumulated around 2500 postcards. The book contains over 100 of postcards that he handpicked to display. He also outlines the history of real-photo postcards and their significance in America’s history as well as his criteria for which postcards he decided to show from his collection. He provides a detailed 37 page intro that for any person curious into the real-photo postcard world will find invaluable and interesting. For others it may appear a little long winded. I personally love the intro as it gives the reader a look into the man, Luc Sante himself as a collector and his mindset with putting together this book. It makes it more personal, and this book being a collection of only his collection of postcards is just that, personal. I think it adds a lot to the book knowing more about Sante as real-photo postcards are very prolific and if you’ve ever looked for them in antique stores you’ll know they come in stacks upon stacks. One thing I really love about the book is that under each postcard there is as much information as possible about the individual postcard, photographer, date, anything writing on the back, and sometimes a description about what the photos is depicting taken from historical information. My favourite photographs in the book are the portraits, as I love old portraits as they are usually quiet strange and creepy. There is a great mixture between rural life, still life, events, portraits, and group shots. The one thing he is really missing is landscapes however he explains in the intro why he made the decision to not include. He has an amazing collection and if you are interested in real-photo postcards or antique postcards or history this book will please you and be a delight to flip through. If you are looking to see professional vintage photography from that time, this book may be a bit of a disappointment as none of them will blow you away and that is understandable as real-photo postcards were treated much like we use Instagram today. The book very niche but seeing as there are not many books documenting this hobby it’s an interesting one to have on your shelf.
These shots were taken last week when Butter decided to come chill with me outside while I was taking some photos with my Anscoflex II and Kodak Dualflex camera. She really likes our new balcony and runs outside anytime we leave the back door open. Our balcony is attached to our neighbor’s with this plank style bridge and Butter tip toes across it so she can sniff their plants. Her favourite thing to do is stick her head through the railing and look at the back yard below. I’m hope to take her down there on a leash so she can start to explore more. :)
My first try at the Diana F+ cameras after years of being a Holga girl! I developed these myself as well, first time doing 120 mm film (I did one roll before this one, so technically it was number 2). So many things went wrong with this film I’m having trouble deciding if I like them or not. The guy who I bought the camera from put black tape on the inside of the camera where the film counter is and I didn’t figure it out until I had loaded the film and kept on winding and never seeing the film counter advance. So I had advance the film all the way to the end and then reload it. And last week when I was developing it I made a mistake on my calculations for the fixer and added extra water diluting it incorrect. Plus I’ve never used Kodak 120mm film before, I’m so use to Lomography’s re-branded film and the contrast you achieve with that. So lets just say I cannot tell if this is what end results normally look like. My first impressions are though that I love my Holga and I love the results I get with it (I haven’t developed my own Holga film yet) and I’m on the fence with Diana F. So we’ll see, definitely it deserve another roll of film to try, and hopefully things will go smoother. lol.
I love this dadaist piece from my backlog. I’ve had it hanging in my house of years, and I cannot wait to one day blow it up and have it in a gallery. This piece is very much of the definition of what I love about photography and art and what I want to bring to the world. My fluffy stuff it like my ‘everyday’ photography but this is really my passion. As a self-portrait I think this says everything about me, I can see so much of my past in my expression. In a lot of my work my expression is very blank, I really like being a canvas for what else is happening around me. This photo employed a lot of my who I am, and I find that beautiful to see.
For Sunday, I am really enjoying sharing my collection of self-portraits. Today’s is me wearing one of my custom Citizen Erased mask’s. The face on the mask is the only one I’ve made from a photo that I didn’t take. It’s Aphex Twin, if you are a fan of Aphex Twin you may remember when there was masks of his face floating around. The smile is so sinister. This was taken in 2009, I had just recently moved into my 2nd house in Montreal and was trying out the crawl space in the bedroom. The photo is just suppose to fun, although I am sure most people will think it’s creepy. :)
I have owned this camera for a year and never gotten around to taking photos with it. I finally tested it out! I really wanted to develop my own film a few weeks ago and since goes through film really quickly, I toke it out for a walk in my neighborhood. I live in the Plateau area of Montreal, so lots of old style townhouses. I love the shots, even though they are test shots. Cannot wait to take more with friends and in color (black and white is okay but this camera demands color)
taken a few weeks ago while it was snowing, walking unseen.
Photographs by Man Ray: 105 Works, 1920-1934
So far I have been reviewing current art books by contemporary artist, however I thought I would change things up by reviewing a book about a classic artist, Man Ray. Man Ray is know for being a painter but as a photographer my interest in him is more his photography. He was an amazing, inventive photographer of his time. As a person who considers herself a surrealist or a dadaist photographer, Man Ray’s work speaks to me. This book showcases only his photography between the time frame of 1920 to 1934. It does an amazing job at showing all the types of photography he did from experimental , portrait, nudes, still life, and after processing negatives. As well it adds some poetry and words written by himself and his contemporaries but just a few pages so there is plenty of art on display. And at the size of 9 by 12 inches this book is amazing at showing every last detail of each photograph. None of the classic photos are left out of this book. Its a great way to be introduce to surreal photography and when you consider what was happening at the time with photography you’ll realize how groundbreaking his pieces are. And if your a fan of Man Ray and never knew he did photography, this is great way to get introduced and for any surrealist or dadaist, its a MUST. Click below to see select pages of the book!
A shot of my neighborhood is Plateau in Montreal taken in the fall. I love the shadow and contract in this 120mm film.
The Lung, wearing a mask of my face, 2008.
This is a self-portrait of me and my backyard after a heavy snowfaull, 2010.
Masks in the snow, taken with my Holga with 120mm film.
Ising Pucky I made in Germany, photo taken in 2012 of my street in Montreal, Quebec.