51/52 A New Sky
A new beginning! It’s starting to really hit me that my 52 Weeks of Self-Portrait project is over. Just one more than I’m finished, I’m not hundred percent sure what I am going to be doing for it but I really want to do an elaborate photo-shoot (we will see if time and weather permits that). I think it will feel really weird when it does end as I am so use to coming up with ideas for it and planning shots or concepts I want to do. Not that I can’t keep creating those ideas but its different when you don’t have a time restraint. I feel like I’m one of those people who loves making myself busy, yet I am insanely lazy all at the same time? I don’t know how that works. My week off of the blog was nice in a way but I didn’t spend as much time as I wanted on my website or my crane projects. Without deadlines I think I’m a little lost. Feeling a bit down about that however this photo really made me feel like the 52 Weeks project was worthwhile. Hope you have a good week and I’m back this week with daily posts.
“Over and outside
Dark doves will fly
Over a new sky
Oh who you are”
– The Presets ‘A New Sky’
40/52 My Other Half
This week’s self-portrait has a guest! Victor who feels so much like an extension of me at this point it seems silly not to include him in this project for at least once photo (I guess I technically did in one of October’s self-portraits but this one he is actually awake for). I’m not very good, at least not anymore about capturing photos of us together. I remember for our first anniversary I put together a little photo book of portraits of us together and then again on our 2nd anniversary and realized how smaller it was the 2nd time. The 3rd year I just gave up as there were so few photos to choose from and decided not to do it. Still haven’t either (probably should do that for the last 3 years even if they are half the size of the first two books). The books were so good as well to see what we did in the year because there are all types of memories stored in them, whether it was what we wore for Halloween, parties with friends, or discovering a new city together. It’s strange how shared experiences go such a long way to forming bonds and making relationships even stronger. We’ve been by each other’s side for 5 years straight, and lived together for almost all 5 years too. Beside a week trip to Toronto, a few days here and there road tripping with Zara and a trip to Vancouver (which he joined me on after a week) we’ve almost never been apart since we meet on New Year’s 5 years ago. Two peas in a pod. So since it was our anniversary this week I wanted to share a photo of us. Taken today after a hell of an ice storm just standing in our backyard in our comfy H&M pants no need for anything more….
34/52 Photographer Eye
The hardest thing about doing a 52 Weeks of Self-Portraits challenge is actually taking one photo of yourself every week. This month I have been really frustrated with my photography and really wanting to step back from it and take a break to really see where I want to put my focus on for the new year and basically not feel like I’m stuck in rut for inspiration. None of that is possible when you ‘have’ to take a photo of yourself but still have the desire to actually make the photo interesting, non-generic and stand out not only as a self-portrait but from the other ones you’ve done in the months leading up this point. It’s hard, on top of it my hair is still this mishmash of colors and I’m sick (boo hoo is me right? lol). I’ve considered stopping but I am really interested in seeing what I end up with a year later for self-portraits. I see the value in a project like this but I do realize why some people never do projects like this – and it’s not because it’s hard. It’s because as a photographer, you know what you like in your photography and others – you don’t ‘have’ to take a photo or be in a situation where you show people photography that you don’t think is of your standard….projects like 365 and 52 Weeks Projects lead to that happening because you aren’t allowed to not share it and do it again later. I know next year when I’m done this project I will not being another one like it again. It gives me inspiration but it also stifles my creativity and energy. I wish I had enough time in my week to pour as much love into this project as I could but with everything I do sometimes it doesn’t even come into my Top 10 list of things to do this week. My ‘photographer eye’ is something that’s important to me as an amateur photographer because it’s how I share my view of the world. Sometimes I don’t want that to be anything less than the best, which is one reason I have been in need a break this month. Do projects like this really let you show your best? Let me know what you think in the comments and if you’ve run into the same wall yourself in the past with your photography. Love to hear from you!
18/52 River Watching
This week’s self-portrait came totally out of randomness when me and my friend passed by a train bridge driving through a small town. We stopped the car and hopped out to investigate and take photos. In the photo I’m sitting on one of the bridge’s beams dangling my legs over the river below. I’m also not wearing any make-up as I cried most of it out laughing with Zara hours before picking blueberries. It was just so peaceful and relaxing sitting on the edge that I really wanted to try and share the moment with you even though it’s not the greatest photo. I’ve really started to think about how weird it’ll be to look back at my 52 Weeks of Self-Portrait project next year and see all these moments in times that I may have forgotten about and the evolution of my hair. Speaking of my hair, it’s so pretty right now I’ve included a photo below of it and me squinting in the sun while on the land part of the train tracks.
17/52 Needle in the Hay
Today’s self-portrait is just a classic style of black and white portrait photography using triple exposure to get the effect of the leaves around my face. I was working on a more ‘spookier’ idea with me holding my two floating heads but I’m not a master at having similar facial expressions in 3 constitutive shots so it was a bit hard to get a shot I liked (example: one would be still, another angry and another more frightening…my expressions kept throwing the shot off). I did love how serene I looked in this one so I cropped out the rest of the shot. I’ve always wondered what my photography would look like if I photoshopped it and did effects like most modern photographers but I’m just happy taking simple shots to be bothered with it. Hope you like and next week is super busy so it’s good idea I already kind of know what I want for next week.
“There’s a name you keep repeating
You got nothing better to do
And you’re with someone who’ll hear you say it and just nod
Her hand on your arm
Her hand on your arm
She put her hand on your arm
And told you her name you can’t pronounce it
I’ll show you around this alphabet town”
– Elliott Smith “Alphabet Town”
Today’s photo brought to by 3 days of dancing and very little sleep since Mutek was this week. Me and Victor had the weekend light passes so we got to go to all the evening shows and today’s Piknic Electronik. It was amazing seeing djs from all over the world and being able to enjoy and experience their music live. The best set by far was the sexy Ricardo Villalobos who played last night for almost 4 hours up until 6am and again today for 2 hours at Piknic. Best visuals go to Audion though, and best collab song was local djs Mossa and Ben Nevile. Also loved Max Cooper and Magic Mountain High, need to listen to them more…it was a good Mutek. My week of rain ended with the hottest day yet this Spring – just in time for Summer I guess. I probably shouldn’t have trusted myself to take a photo this weekend – I barely managed to take this one (:p). But here we are, I tried to get one of me and Villalobos but it just wasn’t meant to be. Hope you had an amazing weekend! Excited to sleep in the next few days!
Here is another one of my watching Villalobos play his 2nd set at Piknic Electronik this afternoon, you can see the stage in my sunglass’s reflection. Also my new hair color! It is an ompre effect. Cotton candy pink into a darker neon pink on one side and then lime green/yellow to turquoise on the other. Loving it but forgot to change my piercings to match. Have a better photo of my hair on Friday if you are curious to what it looks like.
I am really enjoying my 52 Weeks Project, at the very least it will make an amazing catalog of my hair. Every girl needs that right? A reminder of all the horrible things she’s done to her hair. This btw is the most neon my hair has looked. I mentioned before my co-worker said I looked like a highlighter pen and I just love that comparison. This week was a really casual week and I felt I needed a casual self-portrait to go along with it. I think this photo trips me out a little because my eyes are so grey (love my colored contacts). This might be the last you see of this hair combo as well, already have a new color lined up for the yellow half.
“Something’s got a hole in my head
And I didn’t know
Yeah, and when you come on
And it brings a new type of grace
And it keep coming back for more
And it leaves me with a shimmering face
And it keep coming back for more
Neon, when you come and go”
–The Knife “Neon”
04/52 Sunrise Watcher
I didn’t think I’d run into a speed bump so early in my 52 Weeks of Self-Portrait project. It’s pretty hard to concentrate of taking a self-portrait when I’ve been sick all week. I spent 2 days straight just lying in bed missing work and now that I’m on my feet I feel even worse than before and haven’t gotten much better. Not to mention it’s been raining outside so this photo is kind of a happy accident. On Thursday when I couldn’t sleep I ended up watching the sunrise before finally collapsing into bed. I wanted to take a double exposure of myself and the sunrise. Not the most interesting self-portrait, I know. Bear with me?
“Six arms and one leg but not alone, standing in the light but yet unseen, wings like a fish, tail like a bird.
Strange words in the dark, and elephants on the wall
On the other side of the field I heard a rumour
Feels like two, feels like three, feels like something in the tree”
– Minilogue ‘Six Arms and One Leg’