My 52 Weeks of Self-Portrait project really got me exploring self-double exposures. I shot these back in January using a kitty mask my best friend Ana gave me for Christmas and as I said during my original 52 Weeks post, I thought I looked like a Valkyrie for some reason. I love Valkyries as they remind me a lot of artwork of Lord of the Rings. Norse mythology is also very interesting and anything with badass females I can get behind! I find it’s hard to achieve photography that I find haunting and these definitely have that vibe to them so I wanted to share a few more with you. Even though my project just end last week, I will definitely be doing more multiple exposures of myself so you like this style it will not be the last of it (although I do need a bit of a vacation from shooting myself).
47/52 The Snow Yak
I can’t believe there are only 10 more self-portraits left before I finish my 52 Week project. This week’s came to me in the middle of the night when I realized that soon the snow might be gone and thought, hey that Mark Ryden mask I have of The Snow Yak should make an appearance this winter. If you want a weather report of Montreal, it’s been snowing all week and -30 except for today so I’m crazy for thinking the snow will go away any time soon. I’ve been all over the place this week so it’s not hard to imagine my braid would leap there. My friend Zara is moving out of Montreal back to the West Coast and I think it’s really made me feel like I need to change up my life some way too so I’ve been obsession this week about organizing my house. Last night I finally hit my breaking point and I started moving furniture around at 3am (sorry downstairs neighbours) and completely changed how my living room/office looks. I had been thinking of turning our entrance room into a library of sorts and making the living room to be more functional as an office so I just started doing it. Right now everything around me is a mess but I feel like the next week I can organize and make positive changes and maybe that’ll clear my head a bit. This week inspirational song goes with the theme by the way, a British indie band by the name of…
“So I took a trip inside my mind
And it opened up these eyes which had been blind
I saw wonders I can’t define
Then I lost control and I fell
From this earthly heaven into hell
how long i stayed there, I couldn’t tell”
Sometimes the best photos of a spur of the moment, like this week’s multiple exposure self-portrait. This mask is of a cat, but I feel like it makes me look like a Valkyrie in these photos. My best friend Ana gave it to me as a Christmas present and I love it so much I had to include it in this week’s 52 Weeks of Self-Portrait. Next week I hope it snows as I’ve yet to take a snow photo this winter. Hope you all have a good holiday, see you next week!
They puzzle me
Then the riddle gets solved
And you push me up to this
State of emergency
How beautiful to be
State of emergency
Is where I want to be”
38/52 Home Sweet Home
Some weeks I just get lost and feel like I can’t possibly recover. Most of those weeks are when my insomnia and anxiety are controlling me and my life is too much. Every day becomes me trying to fix my problems with in one fell swoop but instead spending the day too tired to even accomplish the simplest of things. Like a weekly photo…..so I sat on my couch in my new fuzzy sweater and I tried to hide.
“The shadow from the former
Over my shoulder waiting to take me home
I heard its every call
I know what it wants
I’m willing to leave for home”
31/52 Come to Daddy
I felt I had to make the self-portrait for my 52 Weeks Project this week my Halloween costume. My costume this year was Aphex Twin, yes that DJ I’ve been going on about non-stop since he put out his newest record Syro in late September. The costume is a little lazy of me because I made the mask 6 years ago for fun, it is his album cover for ‘Richard D James” and the for the rest of the costume is clothes I already had in my closet and a ginger ratty wig from Dollarama. I’ve had so much going on this month that I couldn’t really place a lot of focus on making or spending money on a costume. It’s kind of an insane costume to begin with so maybe I’ll revisit it sometimes and make an exact replica of one his video characters. I’m supposed to be one of the children from his video “Come to Daddy”, oh and I may have made a gif of me… (if you want to see the gif with the added sound, click here)
11/52 Alternative Personality
Today’s self-portrait features one of my mixed media masks. The mask was made with a self-portrait photograph, it’s hard to tell it me since it looks more monster than myself but that’s what I love about it. The whole image is really inspired by a portrait of my best friend that I was working on last night. The portrait was in color but I had converted it to black and white and I kept thinking how I don’t shoot very much in black and white and thought I’d try it out for this week’s 52 Week photo. I’m happy with the results but wish I had more chances this week to take photos. Montreal needs to stop raining, it’s no fun.
“I got supplies, you got demands
I got the sense that you can’t understand
I got supplies, you got the demand
I got the feeling you don’t give a damn
You can have it all
Anything you want
You can have it all
Everything I’ve got”
–Fischerspooner “Supply & Demand”
This week’s self-portrait was created using my projector and a photograph I took in Vancouver of cherry blossoms (from this post actually). It hasn’t felt like Spring at all in Montreal with its continuous dark skies and gloomy weather so I decided to create my own Spring backdrop. I’ve had my projector for almost 6 months and haven’t really found the time or patience to learn anything, so if you have any links to good tutorials let me know in the comments because I am hoping to start using it a bit more. Me and Victor want to create a duo where he dj’s live and I do the visual. I love that idea, merging both of our passions together. I’ve included another one of me below, it’s hard to decide which photo to use!
“To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you
I was moving through the silence without motion, waiting for you
In a room with a window in the corner I found truth
In the shadow play, acting out your own death, knowing no more”
– Joy Division “Shadowplay”
I find myself still fascinated with my older unedited photography of me wearing masks. The shots I am sharing today were taken in 2009 after a very unusual heavy snowfall in Vancouver just outside of the basement I was living in at the time. I am wearing the mixed media mask I made of my own self portrait edited by a friend on Flicker called HOTB. It feels weird to look at these because I honestly do not know what I was thinking or how I manage to get these shots while wearing a mask that actual blinds me. I’ve been seeing a lot of cool surreal self-portraits from international photographers lately and am really tempted to start a 52 Week project when my 365 project is over where I take a weekly self portrait of myself. I want to give myself a chance to explore the more surreal elements of my personality again.
I thought we needed more Ising Pucky I photos for Vintage Tuesday. These were shot in Vancouver this summer at the school yard between where I use to live and my best friends house. We’ve spent many a sober and drunk evenings and dawn in this school yard collection ourselves and sorting through parts of our 20’s. It feels surreal anytime I am there in the daylight. This is part of a long running project I have using mask of people’s faces to convey the need to unmask ourselves to each other.
The lyrics btw that were used in this post are from this amazing song, I am addicted too.
A sneak peak at some of the Ising Pucky 1 photos I from Vancouver. I’ve never used the Ising before on portrait shots and it appears the focus is just not ideal for portraits at all (lesson learned). There is two fixed focus distances for the camera and I used the lowest which I thought would be far enough for most portrait shots. I think I will try one more time with more range on the subject but I am happy just using this amazing camera for landscape if I have to. I think the next test to do with this camera is colored film. Despite the lack of focus on the subject’s faces I still cannot help but love these shots.
Thanks so much to my models: Lisa Michelle, Ana Droid and Jessica!